one day I will be happy
it hurts me to know i am alone now, and it’s worse to know that i have chose it…
i need help, i really do. i can’t do this alone. but i don’t want help because getting help means letting go of the one and only thing i am used to, being miserable.
I’M HAPPY NOW.
I just want someone who can calm me down during my occasional panic attacks.
I want him to hold my head and look me in the eyes and say “just look at me, breath in and out, I’m here for you”
the morning after you go grocery shopping is so full of possibilities